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AAAAHHHH, I leave tomorrow for con debauchery. I'm excited -- but a little saddened because the time is going to fly and, when it's over and I'm back to the daily grind with no access to the pool 24/7, I'm going to desperately yearn for it until I go again next year.

Anyway, I just got off the phone with the ASPCA to confirm that a friend of mine/patient at the retail pharmacy where I work can get her cat, Titi, neutered for 5$, if she just brings her medicaid, medicare, and state ID with her to the ASPCA mobile truck this friday morning. And she can! Which is great because I kinda already told her she could but I just wasn't sure and I was flustered so I had to double check myself.

When Tina picked up the phone she coughed soooo much that she could barely breathe and I feel terrible for her. Tina is .... severely mentally ill and she sometimes just, I don't know what the word is, but it's like how I felt when she asked me to be her girlfriend ... except ... now ... I have that feeling 24/7. Ever since she told me she contracted AIDS and that she has a will and everything and how she keeps talking about how she's going to die ... I just kinda stand there ... because ... Tina is such a wonderful woman. Really wonderful. Her severe mental illness sometimes hides her from the world and when the majority of people look at her they just see an annoyance, or someone they should just ignore. I've seen people PHYSICALLY tense up while she's standing right next to them as if she's some kind of poison. She's so wonderful and she doesn't deserve any of this and it just bothers me that things can't be any better for her than they are right now ....

In other news, sometime last week, Rob's aunt passed away. I managed to attend the last hour of the wake because I left work 15 minutes earlier and I switched shifts to attend the mass and the burial in the morning. It's always so tough for me to see the body laid out in the casket because, to me, I just don't see anything remotely human there -- just a waxy doll that smells funny and it's so terrifying to know that we're all going to be like that one day, every single one of us, and it just isn't fair because humanity is so beautiful as a whole ... and just, whyyyyyy.

And, for a piece of lightheartedness, whenever Memorial Day was -- Rob threw a BBQ at his house and it was great for me because all of the family that I'm close to was there (my two nephews and my niece) which is very important to me since I feel responsible for them in an odd way since my sister passed away almost two years ago. With school ... I don't see the three of them as often as I would like to and that sucks ... because I was used to going over there ALL THE TIME and just being around them but I do make sure to text them every day because they're my babies and I want my babies to know how much I love them <3. So, yes, the BBQ was perfect and we were all jealous of the bouncy castle next door.

I saw my baby last night <3. It wasn't for very long and we didn't really go anywhere except Taco Bell and then the back seat of my car for sexy times and cuddle times but ... it was completely worth it. I'm going to miss him while I'm away but at least we both know I'm coming back <3. I really don't know how we're going to survive once the semester starts ... ;~;

Speaking of the semester ... I did like SHIT this semester but at least my lowest grade was a C .... but that doesn't say much considering my highest was a B- ... aaaahhhh well .... life and chronic migraines got in the way so I'm just really happy I passed everything, essentially, and can move on to the next round of bullets in the mental chamber.
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