Family Drama

Jul. 23rd, 2017 02:29 pm
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Kevin, "Can you take me to Target?"
Me, "Okay, let's go now so I can sleep before my night shift."
Me, "Hey can you hide your [pot]? It's poisonous to cats."
Kevin, "No it's not."
Me, "Yes it is, you can look it up online."
Kevin, "Never mind, I don't even wanna go to CostCo and Target. I don't want to deal with the stress. I don't need this third degree."
Me, "I wasn't giving you the third degree, I was asking you to keep the pot--"
Kevin, "NEVER MIND."



Thirty Minutes Later After I've Come Home




Kevin, "Mind taking me to the gas station?"
Me, "You asked me to take you to Target. I agreed, and you changed your mind. I'm sorry you're stressed out, but I'm home now and planning to sleep before work."

And... Now he's screaming at everyone and throwing stuff. But maybe he'll realize this constant yanking on my chain is inappropriate. I'm not sure how much this works when the drug/alcohol abuser you're dealing with someone who ALSO has a personality and mood disorder.

He doesn't get it. We don't want him gone. We want him to get help. But letting his mood swings dictate all our decisions is not a solution.

summer check-in

Jul. 23rd, 2017 06:54 am
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1. Summer foods consumed: popsicles, ice cream, hot dogs, food truck bbq: check!

1a. Summer foods yet to be consumed: maybe some kind of iced coffee drink?

2. Summer plants: still alive!

2a. Summer plants admission: I’ve actually swapped out two of the originals for coleus cuttings.

3. Summer activities: just did a fun google search on the difference between walking and hiking, and there are some strong opinions out there. Anyway, some of that.

3a. Summer activities yet to come: Eclipse!2017, heck yeah!

4. Summer hours at work: a dumb idea, but does give us something new to talk about.

4a. Summer work event to come: the company-wide meeting with food and “team-building activities.” This year’s theme is “Survivor.” Foreshadowing, or just poor planning?

5. Summer weather: it sure is summer out there!

5a. Summer weather update: the weather at this exact moment is actually amazingly nice; kudos to you, nature!

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Thoughts

Jul. 23rd, 2017 01:14 am
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So I was looking at bungee jumping tomorrow, or paragliding, but then I decided I didn't want to do things that would take hours of my day and make me tired for work that night.

Which is too bad, because it was so tempting.

Instead I'm going to try to go rock climbing tomorrow, and study up the certifications I'm 'ReActivating.'

I'd like to work on backpacking too. I was thinking I could start getting the gear, going to one of the local campsites on the weekend, and practice basics. Then I could do trips when I feel comfortable with the gear and believe I can make it a few days without running back to town.

Boundaries

Jul. 22nd, 2017 01:02 pm
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People at work don't like me anymore, but I'm actually totally good with it because it's because I've been cutting the pushover phase of my life.

In some ways, it's fun.

Today Tracy and Tori were talking about Tyler and I was like, "Wow, that'll be so weird, now 'Tyler' will always mean the same person."

Tracy, "Yeah so now you can stop calling him mean names!"
Me, "He said he was okay with being called Tigger."
Tracy, "He hates it!"
Me, "Well if Tyler can't state his needs then he can get over himself."

I didn't even bring up the fact that he literally suggested the name personally. I had no idea his other job was playing Tigger until he suggested it as a nickname when we were talking about how to avoid Tyler-confusion. I just decided it wasn't something to feel guilty about since he's the one who suggested it and confirmed repeatedly he was totally fine with it. Maybe he'll learn to be direct.

Besides, he's the one talking about how great a co-worker he is and then trying to buy alcohol underage from me with hardly any discretion whatsoever. Except not actually going to the damn checkstand personally.

TL; DR: People are often two-faced and I don't really want to be in that flock anyway.




The refresher course is actually very short. I may be able to dive much sooner than I thought and start going to the diving club. Also, PADI offers dive courses with the academic component online now, and then you arrange to do the certification dives with a local instructor! So that will likely motivate me to dive more, knowing I can do the coursework on my own time and only worry about the dives themselves.

You get a new card when you do the refresher course. Though, it's not called a refresher course anymore. It's called ReActivate now.




One of my friends has a surfboard they don't use, so I'm getting a free surfboard to practice on! I can't wait. But if I'm going to the beach like an hour a or anything more frequent than once a week, I should probably get the parking permit. I'm also thinking about getting a bodyboard though. Just to practice paddling and catching the waves themselves. I forgot how exhausting it can be.

I figure I can bodyboard a bit almost every day if I get a wetsuit, then at the end of the week I can practice surfing.

Next weekend, I plan on doing the bungee jumping and paragliding. I really want to get trained in paragliding - I've wanted to for years. So I asked them if they have gift certificate options for that. But before I invest in getting licensed to fly, I should probably make sure I don't chicken out.

I mean, I like the idea of skateboarding, but I know in real life I am a skateboarder just as much as most of the people I try to hike with are hikers. As in, I don't really want to do it, I just think it looks/sounds cool and I wish I wanted to do it.

(Which is probably the same as clubbing. Except when you get me going, I actually do like to dance... Badly. Still, I think on my own, I would last an hour at most, not all night like other people can do.)

I ate much healthier today. It's like... After all that adrenalin, I don't even want to eat bad food. I tried eating junk food yesterday and I didn't even finish it, even though it was all I had eaten all day. Today I'm still on that high: No urge for sugary foods. I wanted my unsweetened iced teas again.

ADVENTURE IS THE CURE (OR AT LEAST MY CURE) TO OVER-EATING AND EATING LIKE A GARBAGE CAN.

I sort of already knew that - I know the more active I get, the less I want shitty food. But this weekend was a really good reminder of that.

Man what a week!

Jul. 22nd, 2017 01:29 pm
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Worked all last weekend. You wouldn't believe how many hand lacerations I've repaired. I'm going to need to ask everyone in my geographical area to please step away from the heavy & sharp objects. I've had 3 crush injuries and at least 6 lacerations in the last 4 shifts I worked. The most impressive damage was someone who accidentally put their arm through a glass & metal door. Y'all, don't expect a door will hold your weight!

I've also had 2-3 admissions, which is unusual for the area of emergency in which I work. They try to send the lower acuity folks over to the Annex (where I work) because there are fewer infrastructure type resources (heart monitors, vital sign machines, only a Omnicell & supply Pyxis), so most of what I see are simple laceration repairs, twisted ankles, sore throats, chronic low back pain that magically became an emergency at 6pm on a random Tuesday, krunny noses, & the occasional N/V/D (nausea, vomiting, diarrhea). Every so often, a VERY high acuity patient sneaks in because they simply don't look bad to the naked eye--it takes some digging to find the real problem. In the last year I've admitted a major heart attack who came in because of a cold, a hip fracture (bad enough to need next-morning surgery) that walked in, a pneumonia patient who had no fever, no cough, and just a little shortness of breath, and a back pain that turned out to be a ruptured kidney! My admissions this week were along those lines: walk in looking not bad at all--run a white blood cell count or get an x-ray or two and OH hey, why don't you come in & stay for a night?

Of course it hasn't helped that I was sick this week. Bryan went to a teacher training last week in the exotic far away lands of Arkadelphia and he brought home this upper respiratory virus which he then thoughtfully gave to me. Booooo. I was okay on Tuesday, sick on Wednesday, and then yesterday was REALLY bad. Fortunately I didn't have anyone who checked in with cold symptoms, because I probably would've stomped on their foot. When you're rocking pseudoephedrine, prednisone, acetaminophen/ibuprofen combo, and oxymetazoline nasal spray just to function enough to come to work, and someone comes in with a runny nose wanting a work excuse? Breeds just a touch of resentment.

I do believe things are about to change a bit though. We recently hired several more nurse practitioners. It's enough that M, the physician owner of the staffing agency for whom I work, has decided to start staffing the Main ER with 4 NPs per day: 2 from 09:00-17:00, and 2 from 17:00-03:00. This is in addition to the Annex, staffed by 1 NP from 09:00-21:00 and one from 11:00-23:00 (usually me). As the 2nd most senior employee, I get to state a preference for more shifts in Main or Annex, and I'm going to go for Main for sure. Not only am I specifically trained for that, I'm almost a year into my practice. I'm comfortable with my work flow and my processes, and once that happens it's only a matter of time until boredom strikes. UNLESS I'm learning new things, that is--which is what happens over in the Main ER with the very ill patients who come in. Lots more experiences interpreting labs, which is something I'd like to get better at.

My RV really wants to go somewhere! Ganon's birthday is Monday, and between that & my work schedule, there's no time for us to take the RV anywhere before school starts back. I'm going to plan us a trip to northwest Arkansas anyway, though. That can be done in just a couple of days. We can stay at an RV park over in Bentonville or Bella Vista and see the Crystal Bridges Museum of American Art and the Amazeum. A trip like that might even be MORE fun on a random weekend during the fall, when the heat is less unbearable. Even later in the fall would give us the gorgeous foliage of the Ozarks.

We're going to our first Dragon*Con over Labor Day weekend! I'm so excited! My mom is working on a costume for Ganon to dress as Link from BotW. I can't wait for...

Ganon: I'm Ganon.
Fan: Don't you mean Link?
Ganon: No, I'm cosplaying as Link. My NAME is Ganon. :D

I'm taking one cosplay outfit: my Pokémon professor costume from last Halloween. It's incredibly easy. It's just one of my old lab coats to which I sewed a Pokéball patch on the front. Put that on over one of my cute dresses, and *poof*! Pokémon professor! I already have a bit of an animated look, with my colorful hair and my professor-type glasses and my stand out makeup. When I wore it last Halloween, people knew instantly--even the parents at houses we went trick or treating at. Other than that, I think I'm going to stick with my geeky shirts & skirts from Her Universe & Tee Fury.

Right now, however--I am craving pizza with mushrooms, and I just found that Lost Pizza now supports online ordering. It's go time!

In Memoriam

Jul. 22nd, 2017 12:04 pm

baffled by time

Jul. 22nd, 2017 06:52 am
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I’m at that point of the month when I’m startled *both* by how much of it has already passed and how much is left. It’s the 22nd! But there’s still more than a whole week to go!

(Part of it is the weekends, I think. July has five full weekends, which hasn’t happened since April and won’t happen again till December, and it makes the month feel extra long.)

Anyway, it’s weekend #4, so I guess I should figure out what I’m doing with it!

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Plans

Jul. 21st, 2017 10:05 pm
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I'm planning on getting a CostCo surfboard to practice. The people there say those surfboards are fine for beginners.

I noticed from the photos of me surfing that I have gained a lot of my old weight back (not so surprising - I've had a lot of sugars lately, and I've been eating a lot of fast food again.)

So Since I'm free Saturday mornings again I'm going to try to do the 5k runs regularly and then the 10k runs. I'll have to figure out the rest of the week.

Skydive SCUBA dive

Jul. 21st, 2017 04:35 pm
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I am literally taking the SCUBA refresher WHILE waiting to be suited up to skydive. #multitasking

Hippo, Birdie, Two Ewes

Jul. 21st, 2017 03:09 pm
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 to [personal profile] gerisullivan !  Magnificent day to you!

fic rec Friday

Jul. 21st, 2017 06:11 am
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Because sometimes I just want to read about the Rogue One crew all being okay and teaming up to rescue Jyn’s daughter.

Baby, You Need To Come Home, by aewgliriel

“I’m sorry I stole your blaster.”

He let out a pained half-laugh. “Which time?”

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Poor Baby

Jul. 20th, 2017 08:40 pm
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This one character really hurts my heart in Strain. I mean, I know it's fiction, but he confronts his turned mother. Then he goes to an Indian restaurant where there's this woman he likes. Then her parents and this other character give him a shitty time til he leaves. Then his childhood hero (works in the Indian restaurant) treats him like a shitstain.

Like damn guys, you don't know what he just went through tonight! And all he did was tell your daughter to respect her mother because she'll miss her when she's gone!




I wish I had friends that were more into the outdoors/adventurous stuff. Jessica and Nick are more museum buddies.

I know, I know. I promised I wouldn't complain unless I didn't make friends while doing said things, instead of wishing they'd just like, randomly appear out of the ground. I'm working on it.

I also have Groupons for dance classes, so that gives me a few weeks of activity and something I'm interested in trying out without fleeing the country.

Uhm. I decided against the Himalaya trip in October (I'll use the credit to do it at another date.) It's too long a trip given what I'm trying to do this year. I really want to focus on the vocational things - e.g., the CNA course. Some of them have absolutely no leeway for taking up missed classes, so a two-week trip would be a bad idea. I may see about a shorter trip at some point, though.

I'll do local things I wanted to do this year, then use the credit to go next year. If I'm really lucky, by then I'll know someone I can invite so I'm not spending extra money to travel solo (though traveling solo sounds fun.)

... I hope I can learn paragliding this year.

On a Roll

Jul. 20th, 2017 07:17 pm
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So, I signed up for the skydive in Oceanside. I want to try to do a group outing too, but I also decided this year I'm going to stop waiting for people to be available and do things I want to do, when I want to do them.

I'm excited because the last time I went skydiving I didn't video. Paid for it. But they forgot to turn the camera on. (I still got photos, though.)

Also, this time I can wear whatever I want, since I'm not on vacation. At the very least, I can not be wearing black socks on my bare legs.

Anyway, I thought, "I have the whole DAY off tomorrow (and Saturday I work in the afternoon) why don't I try something else as well?"

So... What else is on my list of things I've wanted to do?

I was trying to think about what I... Like I want to do. Really specifically me, nothing to do with what other people want to do.

I think I want to avoid rock-climbing for now. I want to climb, but mostly I want to climb for fitness reasons. I don't feel the urge to scale mountains the way my sister does. That's not my thing.

SCUBA takes too much time. I really want to do it, but I need to plan out trips, take other classes (I want to learn cave/wreck diving.) I'd like to get a case for my phone so I can take photos. (What a day. I don't need a waterproof camera. There are houses for iPhones.)

I want to do bungee jumping, but fitting that all into one weekend might be too difficult and/or expensive. (Also, it's something I'd like to do for the purpose of being certified.)

I'm thinking surfing or wind-surfing. I really want to do both (especially wind-surfing.)

But surfing might be easier because there are local lessons offered. I can't seem to find wind-surfing lessons. Plus, surfing I can do here any time. You have to find places/conditions for wind-surfing.




I'm not going to avoid co-workers, but I am going to do things on my own a while too, meet people in relation to the activity instead of work environment. I think that if I do the things I'm talking about, people will be more likely to take those plans seriously because they'll want to do them. (Well, maybe not for the hiking.)

Since I'm not working Saturday mornings now, I may also start trying to regularly do 5ks. I've really wanted to do that. And now I have Saturday mornings.




Okay so:

1. Surfing tomorrow morning.
2. Skydiving tomorrow afternoon.
3. 5k Saturday morning.
4. Photography Sunday.

BOOM. Plans set. I want to do wind-surfing really badly. But I think I want to learn something I can do just any old day ASAP.
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